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One More Friday Night

I had the following choices for tonight:

  1. Go with Matt and Peri to see Star Trek: Nemesis
  2. Play Netrek at RIT
  3. Go see the Amerks play Kat's favorite team
  4. Stay home and be totally lazy

Guess which one I picked? :-)

linuxspice left on Wednesday to take care of some things in Boston. *sigh* I miss her; hopefully, she'll be back soon.

One of my gloves is missing. So are my lightweight long underwear bottoms. Ordinarily, this wouldn't be such a problem, but I was thinking of going hiking tomorrow down at Letchworth, and camping overnight on the Letchworth Trail.

Still mulling over some stuff that I feel really bad about having done that a friend pointed out to me. I really need to get back to her with another apology, as this was a pattern over a couple of years, and not just one specific thing. How could I have developed such a blind spot about many of the things that are most important to me? (If you're reading this, my most abject apologies....)

Oh, and from starstraf:


Five things I want to do before I die:

  1. Have kids (well, kid singular) and raise them to be Good People
  2. Finish my damned thesis and get the resulting piece of paper
  3. Sail around the world
  4. Thru-hike the Appalachian Trail
  5. Make a pilgrimmage to the temple of Bahuchara Mata in India

Five things I have done that I'm proud of:

  1. Earning my black belt
  2. Successfully transitioning without losing my family, friends, job, career, or sanity
  3. Founding the First Church of the Goddess
  4. Singlehandedly getting Avaya's infrastructure ready in an unreasonably short time
  5. Working for social change

Five things that I regret:

  1. Not finishing my operating system
  2. Not finishing my operating system before that Torvalds fellow scooped me
  3. Not sticking to my guns when my family talked me out of majoring in CS when I was in prep school
  4. Bailing out of my first transition
  5. Not vetoing Mrs. Weaselhead when I had the chance

Five things that I'm ashamed of:

  1. The way I've behaved towards a certain someone, especially over the last few months
  2. The mess that I've made of my formerly brilliant academic career
  3. My failures as leader of It's Time, Ohio!
  4. Dropping out of touch from my old martial arts school without turning in my treatise
  5. The way I (mis-)manage money

Five things that I am happy about:

  1. My relationship with Amanda
  2. My relationship with my family
  3. Living in Rochester
  4. Having so many friends
  5. Being able to draw on gender and spirituality as a source of strength

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karenthecroccy
Dec. 14th, 2002 03:50 am (UTC)
Oh, I bet Letchworth is beautiful this time of year, too. A friend of mine took me there for the first time this year for my birthday. It was excellent and muddy :) Have a good time!
ex_serenejo
Dec. 14th, 2002 10:30 am (UTC)
If I'm that friend, apology accepted tenfold, no abjectness necessary. I would like it if we figured out a friendship-comfort-zone, and I trust that we will if we do a better job of listening to each other than we have in the past. Shall we give it a shot?
futabachan
Dec. 14th, 2002 12:18 pm (UTC)
You bet, a hundredfold. I just wish I hadn't made the mistakes that I did the first time around....
ex_serenejo
Dec. 14th, 2002 03:51 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I wish I'd done better, too. I need to be clearer and less ambiguous about what I want/need/don't-want/won't-accept. Not just with you -- with everyone. (Which is not to say everything will be just fine with us if we continue on from here without both of us working on doing things differently, but just to say that I'm not entirely blameless.)
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