December 23rd, 2009


I guess it's a nice problem to have.

I'm not sure if I mentioned it to everyone, but I had some plans laid to move to Seattle in the new year. Something wonderful was happening... and now it's not, in a really heartbreaking way. So I canceled my plans to go, and restarted my job search here in Toronto... and now one of the jobs that I had already applied to before things went catastrophically sour is hot on me.

"Hot on me" as in they're making me an offer, and want me in early January.

Which leaves me with a dilemma. I don't have any place in Seattle to stay, getting everything ready for a move that quickly is a big stretch, and I really don't want to go at this point. I don't want to leave Canada, I don't want to be away from linuxspice, and there are some cool things potentially afoot with the Arcadians here that I don't want to miss out on. And I can only guess what kinds of self-inflicted emotional hell I'm in for, being in Seattle under the present circumstances. Update: I'm in for a hard time wherever I am, and I'm starting to get over myself, so that last point is less telling.

And yet, the company in question is really cool -- exactly the sort of place I most want to land. After a couple of months, I'd have a legitimate shot at winding up moving my career in one of the most appealing directions. And flatly, we need the money, after the disaster that 2009 has been.

I have an even better lead here in Toronto, which is about a 50/50 shot at this point. I'm in, if the hiring manager wins a political power struggle... which won't be resolved until after I would need to start driving west. I shut down my Toronto job search until things blew up, and I haven't heard anything else yet in the week or so that I've been reactivating it, and decision makers are away for the holidays. So I'm going to have to either take or leave this without having anything else lined up.

Crap. It's a nice problem to have, but I wish it weren't a problem. Until a week or so ago, this would have been a moment of triumph. And that makes this twice as hard.